Your Diet Mentality is so deeply ingrained that it feels as though it were a tried and true perspective on the world. Your Drill Sgt. needs to be repeatedly educated and challenged right now or regardless of how much you want to experience change in your disordered eating, you will revert to the old unconscious patterns as soon as any unmet need surfaces.
You must remember that there is another way to approach the situation of wanting to use food to cope other than just going for it and telling yourself you will sort it out later. I’ve been there, done that. It does not generate any change except for an increase in our pant size or lessened self-esteem.